Writing to write because this is a commitment I made to myself. The last 2 days have been hell on earth. Son #3 has stolen and lied about it. grounded to room. then used son #2's lap top to "listen to spotify" and when I checked the history - yep, he'd been on YT etc. It's not the poor decision making that bugs me as much as the lying. He's super oppositional and when I hear him and see him acting out he reminds me of myself as a kid. Scary. Super scary. DH is a concert tonight (he brought a friend of ours) and I'm not on that date because I am policing son #3 - who earned another day/night in his room after lying about the computer last night. Add to that a shitty day at work, a sore throat, 8 hrs of sleep in the last 2 nights and I am DONE.
Today is a fuck my life kinda day. I feel ill equipped to deal with the machinations and complexities of my life - I just want to bug out. Backpack, credit card, passport and go. Alone.
I'll just kick these people straight off this island and take it for myself. No shit.
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